A Love Letter

Akala mo boyfriend ko lang binibigyan ko ng love letter noh, siyempre ikaw din meron.
 Dear daddy,
    I miss you very much. Happy father's day. I miss the way you drive in NLEX & SCTEX while we listen to your favorite Goo Goo Dolls, U2 and Toto music. I miss the taste of bagis that you cook, it is my favorite. I miss when you check out my clothes before going out and if you don't like it, you tell me "Wag mo suot yan, mukhang cheap." I miss it when we laugh at mom's back when she constantly nags. I miss it when you tell me, "Ikaw ang panganay, pangaralan mo mga kapatid mo." I miss our favorite hot & chili pancit canton for midnight snack. I miss it when you demand me to wash your face towel. I miss the way you like my orange juice and iced tea. I miss you dad. I can't wait to see you.
 Okay, ayoko na mag drama. Hehe. See you soonest. I love you daddy!! ♥
Hugs and Kisses,
Tey

Due Date

  5th of May 2011, marked my 9th month in UAE.It's hilarious that I had it compared with the due date of a pregnant woman. Whoah, finally, I've subjugated those dark hours of loneliness. I'm completely (or nearly) exuding glow in my face. But I still miss home, every single day.
   Month of May, when flores de mayo is celebrated. Flowers remind me of mom. She always has seeds that are watered and nurtured. They sprout over time for maturity. Voila! She has lovely flowers. We have a lovely garden. Therefore, I in happy to see these blessings. What a joy on this crucial earth to live at my home! It is also the month when we celebrate mother's day. My mom's just one of the greatest. Am sure, your mom too. I never want to see her bruise again. She doesn't deserve that.
    My memory is so vivid when I screamed back at her. Saying I don't care. She was even sick at that time. Oh God, please forgive me. Cut my tongue and slap me hard on both cheeks. That replays on my mind every mother's day, or almost every day of my life. It still is painful for me. Much more painful that a lover's heartbreak.
    Ma, I am so sorry. But I promise that I will be the sweetest daughter you've ever known (of course, Kim's sweet as well). I can't wait to go back home. I love you so much.
    Happy mother's day!

Past & Future

C, If I thought first love never dies, well, I now knew it eventually dies. I just didn’t want to convince myself that it’s dead. I was so lame to think that it doesn’t die. But you were so sweet. I didn’t resist you for so many times. Your midnight calls were cute. And that was all I remembered from you. If you read this, send me a message. I heard you’re getting married, not sure though if it’s with Ms. A or with Ms. B.

G, The basketball player. Sure you played a lot better than the other guys. And yes, you knew how to dribble, but I found you on a technical foul. I cheered for your games on our school events. You brought me bottled water after my dance. One day, I was special. The next thing I know, you were telling me you needed to find yourself. So, I gave you space. Thank you for that. PS: Stop flirting after saying bye bye and praying doesn’t mean I’m boring.

L, You weren’t easy to forget because you were the only guy who ever screamed back at me. What we had was a teeny bopper relationship but, I swear, I was serious. And I thought crying in front of you will let you stay with me, but gratefully, it wasn’t a big deal for you. That’s the reason why we never got back together, and will never be. But hello, can we still be friends?

A, I never counted you in.

   For my future love, hey hey hey. I know you’ve been in search for me. I won’t wonder anymore why you haven’t come here with me… because the plane ticket is pricey. But I’ll see you soon then, right?

What is Missing?

            I never knew I had everything before I jumped in here, right at this situation.

            I was happier before. When the 6:45am alarm clock ticks, I wake up effortlessly. I was excited to go to work at that time. You’d see me jolly, smiling at every colleague. But now, I can’t. I just can’t force myself to be happy. Monetary reward it is. But I feel unhappy.

            Yes, I’ve wished for this. I’m so sorry, I failed.

            I see different colors of people. But I couldn’t trust someone so much. I can’t be that confident to do so.

            I might explode one day.

            Shall I go back? Shall I sacrifice?

            Why is that, that in this world, you need a lot of money to enjoy life? And I am talking about pleasure. Why can’t life be just simple?

            I miss the life I had. When I was a girl who would smile even to the strangest stranger.

            Again, for the nth time, within the seven months I am in this place, I throw a complicated question to my face: Happiness, where are you?

           

Develop the Right Attitude

Develop the Right Attitude

Here are 10 suggestions to help you develop and maintain a healthy self-image.
Read them slowly. Meditate on them regularly.

1. Hate your sin, but never hate yourself.
2. Be quick to repent.
3. When God gives you light, walk in it.
4. Stop saying negative things about yourself. God loves you and it's wrong to hate what He loves. He has great plans for you, so you're in conflict with Him when you speak negatively concerning your future.
5. Never be afraid to admit that you've made a mistake and don't always assume that when things go wrong, or always say, "It must be my fault."
6. Don't meditate excessively on what you've done, right or wrong; both of these activities keep your mind on you! Center your thoughts on Christ.
7. Take good care of yourself physically. Make the best of what God gave you to work with, but don't be obsessed with your appearance.
8. Never stop learning, but don't allow your education to become a point of pride. God doesn't use you because of what's in your head: He uses you because of what's in your heart.
9. Realize that your talents are a gift, not something you have manufactured yourself; never look down on people who can't do what you do.
10. Don't despise your weaknesses; they keep you dependent on God.

~~ Author Unknown

Love Songs and Lullabies

 As I listen to dreamsounds before falling asleep, I now am allowing myself to fall in love. With my full consent. Just a piece of happiness and an everlasting romance.

 But then again, who? When? A big question.

 Let's fly away baby.

Dear Man, What is a Woman to You?

  "What"? Didn't the question should be, who is a woman to you?

   A superb human being who undergoes a cycle, one who conceives from her womb, a powerful splendid fighter for life. A woman who is a glory to creation. As a woman,  I stand up for pride,  beauty and wisdom. Deciphering the codes of the male specie. Walking tall with class and virtue.  Someone who is worth for every time and dime. A woman may have been invariably intricate but still is deserving of passion and loyalty. The definition is so broad that I can't condensed anymore.

  But there goes the XY chromosome, wanting so much of her. Her breasts, her buttocks, her skinny waistline, her whole figure, her pretty face and perhaps, her heart. Demanding her to do this, do that and she does accordingly, even though he is self-centered and egotistical. She's blinded by all what she sees. But when she's jaded, she'll do the rants, nagging and complaining. She doesn't deserve to be maltreated, annoyed and betrayed. And eventually, there follows a revenge for all the dishonesty. Beware of what she can do and what she can't do for love.

  And just for the record, a woman is not a property (that you have the rights to own) nor a trophy for exhibit. A woman will still choose chivalry to redeem her and loves compliment. She is not a slave, but full of resilience on every mishaps that will be stumbled upon.

  The Hebrew Talmud says: “Be very careful if you make a woman cry because God counts her tears. Every tear a woman shed is equivalent of a man’s sacrifices in life. The woman came from a man’s rib — not on his feet to be stepped on; not on his head to be superior, but on his side to be equal; under his arms to be protected and near his heart to be loved.”

   For you man, be gentle enough to know what makes a woman hurt. Be sensitive enough to be a knight in shining armor.