Love Songs and Lullabies

 As I listen to dreamsounds before falling asleep, I now am allowing myself to fall in love. With my full consent. Just a piece of happiness and an everlasting romance.

 But then again, who? When? A big question.

 Let's fly away baby.

Dear Man, What is a Woman to You?

  "What"? Didn't the question should be, who is a woman to you?

   A superb human being who undergoes a cycle, one who conceives from her womb, a powerful splendid fighter for life. A woman who is a glory to creation. As a woman,  I stand up for pride,  beauty and wisdom. Deciphering the codes of the male specie. Walking tall with class and virtue.  Someone who is worth for every time and dime. A woman may have been invariably intricate but still is deserving of passion and loyalty. The definition is so broad that I can't condensed anymore.

  But there goes the XY chromosome, wanting so much of her. Her breasts, her buttocks, her skinny waistline, her whole figure, her pretty face and perhaps, her heart. Demanding her to do this, do that and she does accordingly, even though he is self-centered and egotistical. She's blinded by all what she sees. But when she's jaded, she'll do the rants, nagging and complaining. She doesn't deserve to be maltreated, annoyed and betrayed. And eventually, there follows a revenge for all the dishonesty. Beware of what she can do and what she can't do for love.

  And just for the record, a woman is not a property (that you have the rights to own) nor a trophy for exhibit. A woman will still choose chivalry to redeem her and loves compliment. She is not a slave, but full of resilience on every mishaps that will be stumbled upon.

  The Hebrew Talmud says: “Be very careful if you make a woman cry because God counts her tears. Every tear a woman shed is equivalent of a man’s sacrifices in life. The woman came from a man’s rib — not on his feet to be stepped on; not on his head to be superior, but on his side to be equal; under his arms to be protected and near his heart to be loved.”

   For you man, be gentle enough to know what makes a woman hurt. Be sensitive enough to be a knight in shining armor.

The Old Youth Excuse

  You were trying to sneak out of the house on your teenage years to attend house parties. And when you come home late, you even shout back to your mom saying you wanted to explore and just have some fun. Yeah, you had some fun. But with a little foolishness, I guess.
   I'm at my quarter life, they say, but feels younger. Not irresponsible, immature, stubborn career oriented lady. One day, I spoke with a guy having regrets in his childhood. That he wasted time on alcohol, friends & women, that he was a college drop-out transferring from one university to another, even so, his parents could afford the most expensive school then but he didn't value his parents' presence and that he simply was a trasher. I asked him why he was able to do those things, he answered me, ".because I was young, carefree, I wanted to enjoy my life." I said he was too unappreciative of what he had. He could have been a degree holder by now. Yet he told me too that he's a different person now. Perhaps, he’s a better person.
   Well for me, you can enjoy your life while being serious in studies. Most successful people sacrifice a lot. Like shedding a lot of their golden time working so hard to accomplish their goals.
Now, I wonder if I had done something so good that for some other people find it really inspiring. And if I can just go back to my teenage years, I swear, I would be better (but I was good enough).

Juggle Balls

Written by the CEO of Coca-Cola:

"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - work, family, health, friends and spirit and you're keeping all of these in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls - family, health, friends and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.
How?

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live ALL the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us each together.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going.

Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.

Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

From Virginia Woolf

   Across the broad continent of a woman’s life falls the shadow of a sword. On one side of that sword, there lies convention and tradition and order, where all is correct. But on the other side of that sword, if you’re crazy enough to cross it and choose a life that does not follow convention, all is confusion. Nothing follows a regular course.

Tracy is Crazy and Weird

…  because up to this very single day, I know, I am sure that I can’t afford the hospital / delivery bills, the vaccinations and vitamins, the milk and diapers, and most of all, I cannot even perfectly cook a sunny side up egg for breakfast.

How could I possibly be that? I know I couldn’t stand it anyway. And hey, I’ve got to travel in other countries more. So, saving up for traveling is in my top priority list. And okay, I humbly admit with full efforts that I don’t even have that good lover boy.

            And maybe I can help depopulating the world. Kudos to me for being grateful on my own. This is not a selfish reason at all. I love the freedom. The pleasure of self love.

PS: I would love to change my last name, with all divine intervention, into a Spanish one.

Privacy Is A Must So Shut Up

How funny it is when you over publicly announce that you are in a relationship and changing your status after six months into "it's complicated". I'm not used to it either but it sounds so silly. I have set my facebook in it's most private mode days ago(but I can go back to its friends only settings once I've missed it) , and for making these things, I love being a little enigmatical. And a little amount of mystery is warm fuzzies for me.  I was checking my profile and on it's recent feeds, there were few of my friends who went from in a relationship to single or to it's complicated. So, I logged out of it leaving a bubble in my head, saying "uh oh". Now, for my own opinion, I didn't care how much they've been hurt. Ah, heartless I am? No. If you have just gone out of either a good or bad relationship, which saves you more from heartache? Telling each and every friend in your list that you are in the state of slump? Or keep it to yourself and nurture everything that has happened? I'd give a shot to the latter. I'm trying hard not to offend anyone here but again as I've said, I have the political right for this opinion.   If I see sweet wall to wall comments, it's indeed sweet. But for me, it's like evidences of unreal, mushy, resonating to puppy love play. Ooops, no offense. You can send it through a private message, email or text, but why post it for everyone else to read? Oh, you're too proud to say that you are in love! I guess.   This is just my plain opinion. Protect some part of your life that not everyone has the right to know, because some people don't really care about what's going on with your life. And do you really care that much for other people too? I bet not.